Movieee

Yesterday went and watch the movie 2012...
Me, jon, szeyien,yeeling, germagne, lady boss, america and swee chin.. swee chin n mui geik, germagne n lady boss come kajang n hv fun... they stayed at Yee Ling's house.. At 1st, they gonna watch 11.30pm show.. But after we see see the cinema they say 11.30pm full rdy, so they also watch afternun wan wich is 1.45pm..
Overall, the movie is not bad...
quite chi gek n touching... wuwuwuwuwu...
I wonder will it really happen aaa... Touchwood errr.. Dun la... I dun1 the world end so fast... :'(
hahaha..,
till then..
see ya ppl

1st of Nov

Today's 1st of November.. So fast !!!!! Time flies... 2 more month, we gona say goodbye to year 2009..
Im hoping for a happier month.. bcoz honestly, im damn absolutely so unhappy last month..
Hmmm... Basically, nothing much to say la.. Im just damn bored...
You see... around 6 more weeks to finalsszz, n im done for 2nd semester.. wheee !!! Next sem will be really "chunt" coz got AS exam.. waaaaa... =)
This sem i felt... The bond in the class., i mean among classmate, totally great... Not to say 100%, but we get together even closer this sem.. true or not, feel it yourself...
At least better than 1st sem la rite or wrong.. hehe...

But on the other hand, what i feel is.. I felt much more happier during 1st sem... Bcoz im pressure free, i dun care anything, and do whatever i want..
But now, I duno when it started, I felt sum pressure on what i shud do.. huhu... Anyway, pressure is what I created myself, no1 to blame.. But i duno how do i created it.. Somehow, it motivates me to do things better..
So, pressure ain't bad after all..
This week i tink got Bio test.. You see, Im saying I THINK, wich means Im uncertain.. I oso duno got or dun have.. u see la.. haiyer me..
I havent study oso... I must go study liao la, But that facebook distracting me (wan study, but alot reason, blame fcbook sumore)
Alrite la, I will try to cut down day by day.. So that I reli got study... Bit by bit... until finalss, n so wont be so tired lk last sem.. study like chase smart tag lk dat so fast.. sepintas lalu... duno what super eye, scan so fast wan.. hahahaa...
n den at the same time, make my parent proud a little la... If touchwood, didnt get alot A's,of coz wan A ma rite, at least gt improvement abit la.. show sum result to them.. huhu..
Got improvement im satisfied.. I go step by step lk baby.. i crawl 1st la, later only walk.. ahahahahaha.. sampat ppl gv sampat example..
u see ah, say wan study but the finger non-stop typing.. lol..
k ar.. gtg 1st.. tata...
Aiyo.. wan 28th December dy, gona be 1 year.. All my sweet n happy days over thr, i'll never forget.. i miss you guys alot.............

Yesterday me n kim meet up with Shu li.. at 1st @ mcD wan, but then we went to Oldtown..
Although not a long time talk la, but is fun ler.. bcoz ah kim vry funny..
After old town, we went n play poool...
I duno hw 2 play oo.. simply shoot oni.. hahahahaha..

at the carpark
so colourful..

=)

Actually i dunplan to go out wan.. But so long nvr see ma rite.. so, i oso go lor.. hehehe..

I 1 week plus din properly update blog rdy.. Bcoz of sumthing and Im a bit busy..

I busy, but i can on9, no time to blog only.. =)

No la, bcoz ntg special or interesting for me to blog about oo..

i 4dAYs got class ni dis week.. mon dat day no class.. so nicee ooo... bcoz monday's class most pack wan... 1 hour break onia.. wahh...

lolz...

start frm dis cuming monday, Inti will be damn quiet... coz short sem students all finish exam.. start their hols dy..

wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu.. why a-level long sem wan? but 1 and a half month more, my turn for holiday... yeah yeah !!!

we are done with bio presentation.. moral's wan next. but not presenting, we do video.. wheeee... haha..

k ar... finish crapping..

tata

We as human, cannot always take things for granted...

No title

I don't know how to differentiate between right or wrong..
I do not know how to differentiate who treat me bad, who treat me good..
Who loves me, who doesn't..
Who cares bout me, who don't..
Who likes me, who hates me..
Who is real to me, who is acting..

Maybe my mind, goes somewhere wrong, n makes me think of all this u call it nonsence..
But sincerely, i feel much suffering... Im so sick n tired of all things that had happen.. it's gona b a month.. But now...
I found out, I still can't really "put down"..
As i wana do something, i nvr fail to think the consequences n like i need to check my surrounding b4 i wana do anything.. Why isit like that?
Why am I changing to becum lk dat?
Why m i so scare? what hv i did?
why do i need to live like that?
n am I faking my laugh and smile at this period of time?
Do you see the difference of this post n the last post?
Is like two huge different thing..

If I nvr study thr, maybe evrything will be different..
im not saying i regret... But will it be better or worse?
Will it be happier just like in NS? saya rindu plkn..

All in all, i just hope that things will get out of my mind...
I wouldn't want to go crazy..
My life is simple, but i duno how it becum so unorganised, n complicated..

1 thing i wana know... if u see the person u hate dislike getting hurt, will you be happy?
a random quest pop up frm my sumthing wrong mind..
Am I evil?

~to be continued~

I HATE LOUDSPEAKER

randomness

Yday, went to Genting with eeli also..
Basically, genting is bcuming bored to me rdy.. The theme park, nothing much to play, the indoor same case.. Arcade oso nt reli worth it.. The 1st world plaza pun sudah saya jalan duno hw many rounds.. huhu.. Casino, underage.. haiz..The weather damn hot... While queuing for ride huh, wait under hot sun, my leg oso hangus... n arr, now my face pain..
so we eat dinner b4 balik n rch home around 10pm.. emmm... i so scare my cafe world hangus.. luckily didnt.. hehehehe..
All in all the trip is ok la, fun oso la.. coz we sat pirate ship twice.. fuhhyohh.. Chi gek betul.. hahaha

*********************************************************************

This whole week was okie... At least i dun reli see things n heard things that im sensitive to.. huhu.. lalalalalala... Maybe because I hv chose to view things in different angles n im happy with it... but somehow, i talk sarcasticly sumtimes when it had gt sumthing to do with that incident..
up to u, u lk it or not.. I need time to digest..

Oh ya, I went for sushi twice in a week.. kisiao whatsoever.. haha... Can't help it, coz it's rm2 per plate.. wattodo?
On tues, i went with szeyien. america, eling, n few other classmates.. Damn chunt la that day, we beratur for around 15 mins, n the sushi all sedap-sedap belaka.. all those is wat i wanted to eat..
Feel so satisfied.. hehe...before that, im still thinking whether to go or not to go... later ppl say i eatful.. mampus once again.. But.. i decided to go, as i go with my friends plus hands n legs are mine! goin with frens is full of fun n laughter.. if i din go, i'll regret.

Then on wed, eeli wan go, she nvr go on tues.. so me, jon, xiakwee,eeli n kar hau went again.. walao weh, it's diner time, therefore we nd to beratur selama 1 jam.. but sumhow we still didnt get to eat wat i've eaten the day b4.. afternun has more choices.. hehe.. at nite rite, damn alot that fried scallop wan.. oni cn see tht..
Sushi.. i din noe when i started lk to eat.. ahahahaha...

I enjoyed myself when im with my friends,
Yeeling, not oni my teacher la, my advisor oso... Thanks for all your encouraging words n ur advice.. Although I can't accept all, but still.. some of ur words makes me feel better.. makes me think more like a matured person.. n to the others of my frens.. kim, america,bosss,kuang jiet, eeli n few more, thanks for hearing my problems n supporting me all the way n oweys be my side whenever i nd ppl to talk to..

I felt much more better this week as i had rdy choose to think in a much more happier way..
I LIVE FOR MYSELF, NOT FOR OTHERS..
WHAT I DO, IS WHO AM I..
Thats it.. don't judge me when u urself hv flaw..... I don't need others to teach me what to do, except my friends and family..

Don't spam my life... My life is full of colours, but because of those no life human, my colourful life slowly fade off.. But now, im gona make it colourful back together with my friendsszz n family...
so to those kpochisss outside, pls go get a life, n make the world peace..


till then...
bye

不一样，就是不一样。。

为什么，不一样了呢？

我的感受，你了解多少?

最近的我，总是闷闷不乐。
我的确是真的真的，很难过。
可是有时回想一下，却又觉得，为了那一种人类，而搞到自己不开心，真的值得吗?
我真的不懂哦。

以前，和现在。。。

以前，我很想念以前。。我很想做会以前的我。
那个什么东西都不懂的人。
要玩，就玩，要讲什么，就开口讲个饱，要笑，就尽情的笑。。不需要假假地。

自从那一天起，我已经知道，以后无论我要做什么，讲什么，做任何决定时，都要三思而后行，以免得罪别人，让别人不顺眼。 惹到人家去说“好话”。。
到时候，最难受的又会是我了。

现在，很多东西对别人来讲，也许没有改变。
但，对我来讲呢，就真的有很大的改变。
我觉得，虽然有时，我在做着以前曾经做过的事情，但，不懂为什么，那种感觉我却一点也感觉不到。
简单地说，就是感觉不一样了啦。。。
什么都改变了。也因为这样，我就胡思乱想地，很想放弃。

我非常讨厌这种一直改变的生活。
可是，我又可以怎样呢？

对！没错，只是两句话。。。。。
可是永远都不会有人懂这两句话对我的。。。什么啊。。 创伤吧。。。
很严重吧，我说到。。抱歉，我暂时，只想到那个词。。华语能力有限。。。请多多指教。

我现在，变得好假。。 开心得最假。别人都看得出，失败极了。。
要在别人面前假装开心，真的很辛苦，没错啊。。
可是，这不是我想要的。
我不懂为什么，我就是开心不了哦。。。
每当我看到那样东西，那种人物，那个永远都不想再去的地方时，就真的不懂头脑在想什么了。要笑也有困难。。

是，我正在逃避。。 可是你要我怎样？我看到那些东西，我自然反应就是蒋啊。。
跟我讲啦，你要我怎样? ！
为什么整天告诉我再想也没用？每个人都要叫我不要再去想？
这个我懂啊。。。。。。。！ 可是有时不是每样东西我都能控制！
我的脑是要想啊，我能怎样？
对不起哦，我真的不懂要怎样告诉我脑不要去想。

哭也哭过，倾诉也诉了。我还是这样啊。。
你以为我真的有空没事做，一直要想？
每天晚上在哭，在想起同样的东西，难道我就不会累吗？

现在，我只想回到以前，可以拥有会以前那种感觉。。那就足够了。。
其他的，就让时间去证明。。。
哦还有。。我要多多去拜拜，小人远离我一点。。。

我很想念以前的自己，更想念以前的我们。。。。。

WHY

Why people kip on teaching me what to do when they are not me?
They don't feel what I feel, and when they don't understand the whole situation?

Birthday

My sis birthday @ KFC..
Budak ini mmg anak manja.. tiap2 tahun mesti ada celebration.
tada... this is my sister. Jocelyn wong.. Happie birthday..

proud giler lor

PLay game time

Ayam chicky

Yong Gong Du Shu, Xue Ye Meng Jin!

Adik-beradik yg suka bergaduh, but still we love each other..
Birthday girl vry happy

smiles..

Nt bad la.. jon make wan...

We make it in the afternun, coz ar.. becoz of me la.. evening later i wan go back inti liao.. so sad..

huhu...

Although.. sumthing seems to bother me recently.. But because i hv a wonderful mum, dad, and loving sisters, Im able to put a smile on my face again..

n this make me realise that I still hv a wonderful family hu care 4me... A bunch of ever-so-cheerful friend hu care 4me, and lend me their ears whenever i need them.....

Thank You...

n yes, thanks alot to you.. You know who u are.. You've done alot to make me happie,

so.. don't need to ask me what shud u do.. =)

Till then...

Love,

~carolynwong~

~I had enough, i hope its the end~

The starting point

i noe nothing will be smooth, n the day had begin.. and lets seeeee.. wats next?
The prob is.. the prob does not cum frm my family.. miserable la kan..
Im reali bad la weyh, i didnt realise dat.. hw sad it is.. haih.. sigh.. how nice if i can be more bad..
Today is a wonderful day.. nothing can be even more miserable than today, this wonderful amazing evening.. the starting point of these things is wonderful n yes, i agree there will be more to come.. but the 1st wan is truly very damn challenging..
I reli duno to cry or to laugh or to smile or to wat la.. is like.. fuhh.. i duno who i am now..
if u duno wat m talkin here, is okie.. im just randomly typing, coz my fingers itchy lor...
My mum my dad my sis, everybody, Im sorry...
if i go die, reli dun worth it
Go gv up, means i lost the war..
Go n face it, i duno how...
wth rite...

goodBye.............................................................

Leo Mission

On Sunday was Leo Mission.. This time we went to the Zoo to have community service.. most kids from myanmar joined us tooo... hehe... we gather at 6.30am @ MPH.. Yes, we are damn early, reach ZOO NEGARA around 8 stg... we were grouped into sections.. n my group consist of 3 adults (shugan, jon, carolyn) n 2 kids (patricia and vincent) were assigned to the lion and tiger's kumpulan.. huhu.. Great experience washing the lion n tiger's cage.. phew... We got back around 6 stg in the evening.. huhu.. Although it's tired, but we had fun.. thats all =)

Group pic..

Lion and his wife, i duno call wat..

carolyn and duno wat is the thing

Carolyn n shuganCarolyn and Jon..

The lion..
the basin not in the toilet
deerss

flamingoes

tiger cage..

Sugarrrr... Shugannn
Lala pose..


Our group.. The tigers and lions section..
hahaha..

Kawanku... Shugan..


With Chiao ann @ madu/lebah ssection..

Till then, nitezzz

Never Know

I will never know why isit like that..
n I hope that i won't need to know that..
Im sick of it..
Too tired...

Good night !

Who you think you are

To
Find me when you need me, n treat me lk grass when you don't need..
when u hv ntg ard to entertain u, you come to me, n when u get things to entertain u, phew.. i wont get to see ur shadow.. what is all these?
Damn annoyed ok..
Can u just stop it huh..please..
Sumtimes i just wondering, keep guessing...
Am I important???
Im disappointed..
='(
n i agree with my fren, The word "BELIEVE" had a "LIE" in the middle..
So, shud i believe or not...

Love,
~carolynwong~

A fun wednesday

Wednesday we had Chemistry practical.. So, inti now set a rule said dat u cn only enter ur lab with lab coat.. huhu..

hahaha.. Labcoat lalalalala... but rite, i tell u.. this labcoat is of coz better den convent's la.. haha

=)=P

After lab, we have Chemistry classss.. 4 hours of chemistry.. walaoweh... Class ends at 4pm, and phewwwwww.. off we go to Connaught pasar malam.. There are a total of 10 pppplssss.. eeli,swee chin,yen fern, me, jon, yeeling, szeyien, america, lady boss n boss.. But unfortunately, the weather was bad, and we didnt jalan finish la.. it's the 1st time for me to dis connaught pasar mlm.. haha.. i din noe that it's located just so near frm ucsi.. damn near la alrite.. After that, we went to serdang and we ate steamboat.. buffet kind of steamboat.. hehe.. you can eat all u wan.. neh.. u noe rite, middle is soup wan, then side thr can lk barbeque wan.. hehe.. I think i barbeque more than the soup wan.. haha.. It's nice lerr, the fud.. not bad.. haha.. We this kind of on-then-on people reli geng wan lor.. wan go den go wan.. hahaha..with mum, eeli.. haha

szeyien.. the oweys laugh wit me fren.. haha

Yeeling, our tutor.. oweys teach us, coz she vry intelligent wan..
Jon.. my long lost friend.. =)


America... vry funny fren..

with yen fern, swee chin, szeyien n eeli...

Germagne and sze yien..

promoter..

Half of us..

n so.. we reached Inti around at night.. full like anything.. fuhhh.. damn full lor.. bcoz we ate alot ice-cream toooo.. n too much consuming butter.. huhu.. haha

so... it's a fun day ler...

till the next post..

tata..

take care

S2,

~carolyn~

I dun1 nything

sem 2.. feeling sucks..
mood sucks..
everything is bad..
I don't like it, or i shud say i cnt adapt well..
I duno how to say..
I duno why, my mood swings lk dat everyweek, without fail..
EvryWeek..
I just don't want anything... ANYTHING, EVERYTHING..
Wat oso I dun1 !!!!!
I DON'T WANT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want NS...
theres nothing to think about...
Although, it's tiring, but Im happy..
Till den..

why?

Why do people care for you only when they need you?
n they just leave u alone when they don't need you
SO SAD...
='(

I dislikie you.. hurt ppl, but you dono.. always oso lk dat wan ler.......
Saya dah biasa.. biarkan je la..

Sad Case

Im not a mind reader.. I cnt read ppl's mind..
So sad.. wuwuwu..
Whoever can, plss teach me..

S2,
~carolyn~

Happpy Birthday Esther Siah

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER !!!

dear esther, happpie 18th birthday to you..

18 yrs old edy.. U are now legal to do anything u want..

So, wana wish u all de best in life, may all ur birthday wishes come true and have a great time with all that you love.. =)

Misss you..

S2,

~carolyn~

What's going on

Im just wondering.. and Im curious..
What's going on with myself??
My mood swings like nobody's business..
I feel so uncomfortable..
Why izit lk dat huh??
Can people tell me ar, whats going on with this silly girl?
I can go gila if this things continue lah..
But I know, all this is what I choose to be..
What am I now, is what I choose to be..
So, no need to ask any1, n no nd to blame any1, but only myself
Mampus, you noe what m i talking?
I bet u won't know..
Therefore.. Im now stopping here..
Till then !
GOOD NITE !

1st week of 2nd sem

It's now the 2nd sem..
1st week seems freeee..
But.. Bio, chem and Maths started sum teaching.. a little bit..
So... Mon was hols rite, n we only started going class on tues..
All the lect were changed, xcept for mathematics and statistics..
Chemistry was bored.. Biology teaches at a very fast pace.. n Moral we havent reli start..
My last sem's lect was reli gooood.. Maybe the new lect are good tooo, but uptill now, still the previous lecturers are the best..

yeah, it's only the 1st week, but quite fun n happening though.. Wednesday was our classmate yen fern's bday.. so, we had a little surprise for her, buying a cake for her n we sing K in Music box.. around 20++ ppl? almost the whole classs 85%.. n we make the whole floor full of cream.. Lolz..
On tues and thurs was movie day..
FYI, my college friends are mostly ON-THEN-ON kind of people.. hahaha..
When we planned something, surely on the spot jadi wan..
So, on tuesday we suppose to watch Orphan, but don't have. so sad ler..
:'( Therefore we watch 1 chinese movie called Vengeance.. duno wat ler.. Not that nice la.. OKOK je..
n yesterday rite, mins thursday ler.. Cukup geng la.. Whole gang went and watched
The Final Destination 4..
It's a nice movie to me la.. although some part quite scary, and geli also la..
But not bad la.. I nvr watch 1,2,3.. So i duno la.. Which part nicer..
After watching that movie rite, i feel i must live life to the fullest..
Everyone only live once...
Be thankful with what you have n who you are today...

Oh ya, next week got biology quiz dy.. so fast... n the tcher teach vry fast too.. Her notes vry smalll... haih.. i cannot get use to it..
haihhzz..

Tomorrow, Genting day again.. hahaha.. Not sien wan meh oweys go?
Ok lor.. wont vry sien la.. boleh la... hehe.. cooling plc wat.. n it's my 2nd home kononnnnnnya.. hehe..
K ar..

Till then...
Have a nice weekend peeps..
Love,
~carolyn~