Wednesday, August 1, 2018

Natalie's Birth Story

A very major throwback post. This is Natalie's birth story. It's been 15 months, but it is still clear in my mind :)


10/4/2018, Monday.

Woke up at 6am to pee. Went to toilet again 30 mins later and felt some warm fluid flowing out. The flow is even faster whenever I move.  I went back to sleep thinking that i couldn't control my pee.

But then, my pants are all wet and so I guess It's amniotic fluid. The third time i went to the toilet, theres a bloody show and it was mucous plug according to all my readings. At that moment, I am still steady though. Somehow,  I was thinking "37weeks+3days, am I really gonna give birth today?" I wake my husband up of course, and I went for a shower,  and the amniotic fluid just keep leaking whenever I move.

I was quite excited  at first cuz I knew I might be seeing my baby real soon. But at the same time I was very worry and scare about the labour process.
"how long will my labour be"
"how's epidural gonna be like" (thinking on getting epidural before coz I cant bear much pain)
"How painful will it be"
These are the questions that keep popping up

I tried my best not to think, and continue my shower. Contraction haven't kick in yet. I get my delivery bag and collection kit and went downstairs. Both parent in law were waiting downstair to send me to the hospital. I ate two piece of bread and a cup of milo. That's it.


This is taken during mild contraction,which i still bearable, our last picture before becoming a family of 3 :)

We reach the hospital around 9.30am. The guard say gonna bring a wheelchair but I said it's okay, I can just walk myself and take the lift up to the delivery suite.
So, i went in to the delivery suite and the nurse was surprise to see me come so soon. (yeah, coz my fil drove very fast to the hospital :P)
The nurse then gave me the delivery gown and checked me (not comfortable). I was 3cm dilated.  She ask me whether do I want any epidural. If yes, it will be administer right away, cos after 6cm dilation, they don't administer. But at that time, i have no contraction pain yet, so I just told her "tak payah la nurse". (Gosh, did i just said no need?!)
My husband was shocked but he did not say anything cos he thinks that it is my choice even though he already get prepared that I will take the epidural cos I was very afraid of pain. Even draw blood also I'm scare.

They attached the ctg machine on me to check baby's heartbeat. Everything was fine, baby's heartbeat is strong. Doc came, and said will deliver by today. After that, they administer the drip for me and draw some blood sample. Damn scare of the needle though.
After settle then was ask to just lay down there to rest and wait.

Around 11.30am, I started to have some mild contraction which is not that regular. The contraction was like stomache, food poisoning kind of stomach discomfort combine with period pain. The pain was on and off, and also getting more and more painful as time passes. Around 1/2 hour later, the nurse came and check me again, I was around 5cm dilated. The contraction becomes even more intense and also more regular. I do not know how many minutes apart, I only know that I barely had time to relax. The contraction is like non-stop. By then, the pain was what I mentioned above but 10 times of it. Oh my god, and my husband was whispering beside me saying that I can do it, add oil. bla bla. I just feel like smacking him though. LOLz!

I was shouting and crying in pain as well, but the nurse told me not to, just save the energy in order to push the baby later. But I can't! I tried my breathing techniques taught by my prenatal yoga instructor. It did help a little. (Maybe it's psychological effect? I don't know)
I was in so much pain and the nurse came and give me a mask to breathe in which I believe it was laughing gas. (No, i did not laugh after breathing in the gas)
The nurse told my husband to give me that mask if I can't bare the pain. So, whenever contraction strikes in, he pass the mask to me. But until one point, where my contraction does not stop striking me, I just snatch that mask from him and keep breathing it non stop as though it is my oxygen tank. But by right, it shouldn't be used it that way as I will faint and might not able to push the baby out.

Luckily, the nurse came in and check on me and saw me keep breathing using that mask thingy and immediately take it away from me. She then tells my husband that do not let me hold the mask. He hold it and give me when I need. At that time, i think I'm half fainted, feeling very sleepy cos of the gas and also shiver a little. The nurse kept calling me and wet my face to wake me up. She ask me not to sleep. I tried my best to stay awake, and also keep telling myself if my mom can deliver me naturally, I can do it too. I was so tired and my mouth is so dry, cos keep taking big breath for the pass hour. The pain then continues, there is no break time, all the way painnnnn painnn painn till I scream/shout, cry. I stop grabbing my husband hand. and bang the hospital bed with the mask as hard as I could.

At around 1.45pm, i feel that I need to push. I feel there is something coming out down there. But all the nurses, were next door cos another mom is also about to deliver her baby. I told my husband, I cannot already, I want push dy. I heard the nurses shouted wait for awhile "kejap kejap, nanti u tak tau push" I don't even care and not long after the nurse came in and check, I was fully dilated. The nurse called my gynae, and immediately he arrived and guide me to push already. I forgot how many push in total, but in less than 30 minutes, my baby girl make her entrance to the world, and it also marks the beginning of parenthood for us :)

I was still blur at the moment until doctor told me is a baby girl and I keep ask my husband why she din cry? and immediately I heard her first cry. Then, we were given skin to skin contact. She lay on me, and that was our very first hug. I kissed her and I feel like crying the moment I hold her in my arms. She is such a sweetie. She even know her way to latch without any guide. I feel it is amazing! I just carried her and let her latch while the doctor was stitching. Maybe I was to distract by my daughter and I almost can't feel anything going on down there.
I touches her little ear, her little hand, little feet, smell her head. I was beyond words at that moment.

After almost an hour of skin to skin contact, baby was brought to the nursery. Nurse then clean me up and wheeled me to the ward :)


Her first cry. All the pain I had gone thru are all worth it  :')


Our first family photo :)

So, this is Natalie's birth story. I am glad she loves me so much that she try to come out as soon as she could. I consider myself as a lucky mommy. If you asked me how is child birth? I would tell you yes, It is obviously really painful BUT it is all worthwhile the moment you held your baby for the first time :)  I was really afraid of pain, but I guess its because of the love for my child, I am hanging on there and go through it. To all mom to be, always remember "with love, we can do everything"

Mommy loves you Natalie Lau, forever and always <3 p="">









Friday, January 5, 2018

Third Trimester


Third trimester. This is when the time where many shopping are done. Actually, I did not shop for any essential baby stuff until my cousin brought me to which is like 30 weeks of pregnancy.

I guess is a bit late la cos we should actually be packing our hospital bag by this time.
Eventually. I bought quite many stuff from baby shop. You named it, i bought it :)
As for breast pump, I bought it during baby fair in February, when I'm 32 weeks.
Ya, I was very determine that I want to breastfeed my baby. The only food I offered my baby is BREAST MILK.
I packed my hospital back around 34 weeks of pregnancy. Hey, it's consider late ya. Pls don't follow my footstep coz you will end up kelam kabut if baby decided to come early.


 Okay, so back to me and baby. When I hit 7th months of pregnancy, doctor told me that baby is growing very fast and ask me to cut down on my diet as he afraid that baby is going to be big. If such case happen, i might need to go for c-sect which I never ever wanted.
I was damn afraid that I need to go for c-sect. As a result, I went into a very strict diet which I don't even know how I did it. I did not take maternal milk, no carbo, no oily and sweet food at all and I only drink plain water. My diet is very strict and at times I don't even feel full for one whole day. I had been doing it since 7 months plus and I guess it's a little too late. Fortunately, my baby weight gain slow down. In 2 weeks, my weight drop instead of gaining. However baby is still gaining but in a slower pace. I do not know where my determination come from but all I do is just for the best for my baby.
However, doctor tell me to induce once pregnancy hits 38 weeks due to my gestational diabetes. We agreed as I want to go for natural birth.

Third trimester is basically about controlling diet. Very san fu ehh. Can see cannot eat. During CNY, i also did not drink any packet drink and I cut down on cny cookies like 95%? omg... but it is all for my baby. I can do anything because of her :)


       This is the last baby bump pic before delivering her the next day :)

Next post will be Natalie's birth story :)

Monday, December 18, 2017

Second Trimester

Today, I shall penned down my 2nd trimester memories. So, it was kinda honeymoon trimester for me as all the symptoms eg: vomiting, sleepiness, dizziness subside. The most enjoyable period of my pregnancy. Then, we subsequently announce this happy news to relatives and friends. Suddenly, I feel like a queen coz I was so well taken care off. hahaha!

However, this is the time where I am struggling to get a gynae. Yeah, I went to one during my first trimester which is just nearby our house. But to me, I feel that the doctor isn't giving me much care or attention or maybe I am a very ma fan patient la.. But this is my first child and everything is so new to me right, and some more I'm a paranoid mum. Maybe that's why I need a doctor that is very caring, and let me ask many questions. Obviously, he is not the one coz he talk so fast till I dont have chance to ask, then after that just say "ok, i see u next month" I have the feeling like he is chasing me out. In addition to that, he gave me so many pills, eg: calcium, iron, multi vit, folic acid and all. After i eat it, i always feel like vomiting. Maybe I'm not ngam.
So, I asked myself do I want to continue my check up here. This is just the beginning, how am I going to go through the remaining 7 months?

I started to search online for gynaes, reading, researching and all, discuss with my hubs... He agree to find another gynae. Okay, it is not because he is not good ya, but he might not be suitable for us.

Then you all know la... Kajang gynaes... 1,2,3,4,5 can count finish.. I had considered about KL gynaes like in Pantai Bangsar, Gleneagles KL, Sunway Medical and the list goes on. Furthermore, I also consider about the distance I need to travel every month for a regular prenatal check up. What if I want to deliver then I need to travel far and it is jam?. Omg! I can't imagine that... If thinking of delivering my baby thru C-section then these all are not my concern. But I want a natural birth so distance is really a big factor. :D

After weeks of consideration, I finally settle down with Gynae in KPJ Kajang. I was shy to go there at first la coz this doctor is the one that deliver me also. hahaha... 26 years ago.. But i couldn't think of anyone already. I guess he is one of the most experience women specialist in satay town. Distance wise is okay, and it is a hospital after all where equipment all are ready compare to the first one I went. This gynae is very different with the previous one. At least, I have time to ask questions. He is more caring and talk in lay man terms where we can easily understand. He also knows my family history well and as such become more concern about my blood sugar level. High blood sugar level will result in big baby just like me. I'm 4.64 kg when I was born. :D

So after our first visit, he immediately schedule a Glucose tolerance test for my next visit. Normally this test is done during 6-7 months of pregnancy. But for me, I did it early 2nd trimester so that we can know earlier and change our diet accordingly to avoid big baby. Unfortunately, my result was just border line. Thus, I gotta cut down on sugary food as well as carbohydrate. I even stop drinking my maternal milk powder only rely on multi vits -- Obimin Plus.

Apart from our regular check up in KPJ Kajang, we also went for detailed scan where my cousin recommended me. Well, the sonographer is good i would say as she will explain A-Z to us. Not that my regular gynae is not good, but we just want to check both sides la. I told you, I'm a paranoid mom.

So, by week 16, I can feel my baby kick. The feeling was wonderful and it couldn't be explained by words. I guess all the first time mum knows how I feel. The kick ain't regular coz it is still new. We also got to know the baby's gender at week 16 actually. She is a girl! :)
I started to go for yoga class starting week 12. I do research and I know it is good for preggie mama.. I went for Prenatal yoga in Kuchai Lama --- 72 Yoga, But i think Kuchai Lama branch has been close down. But I stil have the Instructor's contact though.

Basically, my 2nd trimester is the most enjoyable one. My routine be like, Mon - fri go to office. Then Saturday go for my prenatal yoga. After yoga, go shopping at Mid Valley. I went to Mid valley almost every week. I walk a lot and it is very helpful during delivery :) Sunday rest day. Very soon, my 3rd trimester arrive.

Stay tuned :)

























Monday, December 4, 2017

First Trimester

I found out I was pregnant on the 5th week I guess because my period was late for around 5 days. When all my heart had prepared to get a negative, tadaaaaa.....



I got a positive!

I immediately ask Jon to come. He was very happy too!! Then he start his mumbling.. "everyday say u got problem har, now u see.... I say already is stress la.. tell u no need see doctor. I also know whats wrong" and blablabla... 

That time, we were getting ready for a gathering with his friend in Sunway, and I said I wana double confirm the test, and need to go Sunway Pyramid and buy another pregnancy test kit. So, this explain why the picture shows two pregnancy kit. 

We did not broke the news to family members cos it was very new. I believe or you can say I'm a lil superstitious. As we know in chinese culture, do not announce the news before 12 weeks of pregnancy.  So, later at the end of the week, we went to our normal GP to confirm is the test 100% accurate and is the baby in the right place. I read a lot a lot and some says even if you get a positive, u need to check where the embryo was implant. So, I was still worry dead. The doctor did confirm the pregnancy and everything is okay, and he gave me folic acid. Okay, folic acid is very important during the early stage of pregnancy. Now i learnt. He say by week 6-8, we will be able to listen to our baby's heartbeat. We really looking forward to it. 

By week 7, I feel all the morning sickness.  I also sleep all day. When i don't sleep, I will feel like vomiting. Whatever good food you gave me, I'm not able to eat cos I will vomit. The only food i can accept is McD Filet o fish!... hahaha... good excuse to eat mcD huh..

On the 8th week of pregnancy, we went to a women specialist clinic nearby my house for check up. oh my, we heard our baby's heartbeat for the first time ever. So touching.... :')
It was a very fast heartbeat. around 180 per minute. We also get our 3D scan picture. It was so cute like a little bean.. However, we still don't announce the news yet.


The above picture is the 2D one, and the bottom one is 3D
Can you see like a bean? :)

I can't believe Im carrying a little human inside me :')

SO, I sleep and sleep and sleep till almost the whole first trimester. Thus, this first pregnancy, I get nausea and sleep all day long. in between, I did watch some dramas la.. Sg drama, hk drama, Korean drama. But I finish none of them. Too tired to watch.

~to be continued~


Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Introductory to my pregnancy journey

Hey there ! this post today is also a major throwback to a year ago.
It is my pregnancy story. hahaha...

Okay, so we plan to have a baby after few months of marriage.

So, we started to plan after Chinese New Year around March.. It took us almost 4 months to succeed. Some people may think 4 months only mah... But to me, it felt like so long la. I am that kind of I want now means now kinda human being.
The disappointment that we face or maybe only I face every time when period come. I will be like... "why arrr? where go wrong? I calculated wrongly or what" Normally my period quite accurate. There are months that my period came late for four days, is like giving my hope. so i went and test, but i only get one line. Then, I will be crying inside the toilet alone. Not long after, my period will come.. zzz.. The more I want it, the more difficult it be. But my husband very positive guy. He will say.. Ohh nvm la... don't have ma don't have lo. next month maybe have.

After two months of negative result, I started to scare I got problem and wanted to consult doctor. I search online and they say you must keep trying consecutively for 1 year only consider infertile. Then only you go seek for doctors' help. Wah... one year arrr... I am a person with very little patience and always with negative thinking. Actually I thought i can give Jon 1 big birthday present one on June, but I get a negative result again. So, I cry again in the toilet. Then he keep say no need keep thinking about it. The more we think, the more difficult to get. Then okay la.. I slowly forget bout it and didn't think much of getting pregnant d. We then focus on our family vacations to Gold coast and Boracay the following month.

Surprisingly, I got pregnant after coming back from our family vacation though.
The End.
Stay tune for next post ya..





Saturday, November 4, 2017

The JC Wedding


This post is a major throwback to 1 year and 10 months ago. The reason of this blog post is mainly as a remembrance of this special day in our lives. We only married once. So yea, I think I need to blog it out before I forget the details of it. :) Let the beautiful pictures speaks the most of it and I will add in bit by bit ya..


Jon X Carolyn

The eve of our wedding, we had buffet in my house and a few of my bridesmaid stay overnight in my house and some stay overnight in each other place and come togethet in the morning to my house. We chit chatted till late night 2.30am before we finally keep out mouth shut and close our eyes, yea.. we had so much to talk about. I woke up 5.30am in the morning, and my make up artist arrive. Imagine I only had 3 hours of sleep.










      My make up artist (Vincy) is awesome.



                               

  I'm very lucky to have this bunch of girls as my bridemaids


I think my dad is a bit touched. So am I :')




Meanwhile at his place :')



This pair of married snoopy that was used on our wedding car. It was the first gift he gave me during
our dating days. I asked him, why do he gave me such gift since we are like just dating for erm 4 months? He said, "ohh.. coz I know we will eventually get marry" I don't remember the exact conversation but its something like this :')..  

He and his Heng Dais







Angpow giving session i guess


Oreo eating session




Yoga poses


Waxing hahahahah 




Lick the cream on the face :D


Games are simple just for fun and the girls don't have the intention to "play die" the hengdais la...








Sign somekind of agreement. His promise to me. LOL..


Successfully get over all obstacles. hahahaa


















After the game session, we carry on with prayers and tea ceremony...



Too many photos.. So i did not post all yea.. 


My maternal grandpa..  He is a loving man. :)



My family <3 p="">



My father side


My mom side

After that, we rush back to Jon's side for tea ceremony. 











                                            Officially enter our room as husband and wife <3 p="">



Jon's paternal grandma


Dad and Mom


                    His ever so funny grandpa.


they are my new family members


Jon's paternal side


Maternal side


Our Hengdais and Ji Muis. Thank you for being a part on this special day of us <3 p="">

It's about 3pm when everything is done. I took a quick shower and rush to the dinner venue as my make up artist is waiting for me there at 4pm. Gosh! I only get to nap in the car for 30mins. better than none la huh... 






Our photo corner






This fountain has a meaning according to the decorator la.. it means 细水长流。Meaning the relationship will last forever. Something like that..





The main table



Our venue is full of flowers


Our live band from Rhapsody Entertainment


Emcee of the day: CK Lee. 
I found him together with our band. Many people had good comment bout him. He is good. He make sure we know the flow as well and clarify about many things including how we will address our relative on stage.

Our guess arrive around 7pm. It was the peak. Even the apps we use also crash for awhile because too much people at the same time checking in. Yes, we used QR code for the guest and entered their table number, guest number and so on. QR code was paste on their invitation card envelop. We just use the iPad or iPhone to scan and we will get where their seats are. Although it crash a lil, but luckily Jon's hengdais are IT pros so they manage to solve it ... Thank you so much !



Our photo booth pics.. The guest can take unlimited photos from our photobooth and will get printed with our prewedding pic in it. 

Our banquet starts at 8.30pm. Yes, it's so late. I know.. It started off with our immediate family members march in, and then us <3 p="">
I do not know why I dont have the picture of jon's brothers marching in though.. grrrr...


Jon's parents


My sis and my dad.


Flower girl (Jon's sis) and flower boy


and then us <3 p="">



This lighting is quite annoying that it affects our photos. I had told them I do not want this kind of lighting beforehand and yet they give me this lighting. *very angry*


Cake cutting.. My smile becomes so unnatural cuz I smile for the whole day. Cheek also stiff alrdy weyh...


This is how our venue look like..

Our 2nd march in, my favourite gown from Gelly Wee makeup studio.



Then, we proceed to our popping champagne session. Before this wedding dinner, I always afraid bad things and shameful things will happen. Since our second march in will be coming down from the staircase. I keep thinking all sort of"what if". What if he stepped on my gown and we both tumbling down the stairs *face palm* Then, what if when we are pouring our champagne, suddenly the glasses fall apart. Oh my gawd! all these scenario keep playing in my mind. I was so afraid all these thing might happen. But luckily, IT DID NOT. :DDD 


Watching our Same Day Edit Video and Photos.






POP!!!




I'm actually very afraid that the glasses will fall apart and break. *touch wood*




Family member were call on stage for yum seng session.




okay, this is a surprise and we dont know why this game basically test our 默契..

The emcee will ask question for example: When u argue who said sorry first? Red rose is ME and White rose is HIM. Then we need to take up the flower in the count of 3 and see is our answer the same. hahaha! it is funny la...



After the game, Jon gave a thank you speech. Talking in front of almost 700 guest, I CANNOT! 


We took a wefie with our guest, asked by our emcee. haha :)



Some yum seng session. We did not went to all tables cos it is impossible to finish :'(


Our bunch of friends, not all here yet.


My ex colleague who are fun to work with.


My highschool friends, where have others been?


Our Cinematographer and Photographer for the day


Our live band team and emcee. Yes, they are together 


Last but not least, this very important person. My Make up Artist for the whole day (Vincy) and also helping me to choose my wedding gowns
I highly recommend her to all who wants a bridal make up. 


Our last picture of the day. I think Jon also smile whole day until face stiff edy lah.. hahaha.

Basically like ordinary wedding banquet, ours end around 10.30pm and guest slowly leave the hall. After all guests leaves, we took some pictures and I went and change my gown. Saying bye to my gown :'( It's once in a lifetime wearing only cos you won't be marrying for the second time. haha!
By the time the whole thing ended, and we went back home, it is already around 12 midnight. 
I don't know what others feel, maybe just another day passing, but to me, I'm not going back to my own home which I feel a little weird and a bit of home sick. Trust me not, I had never leave home, unless for holiday.. I keep thinking, will my dad and my sisters miss me? Yes, obviously they miss me cos there are now less one person who talk so much. It become a little quiet at home. When I think about them, I'm a bit sad though. 

Well, so what I can comment about our wedding day is everything runs smoothly. It's a nice weather. My wedding gown, my photographer and cinematographer, my live band, and my emcee are all superb. I find them all by myself except for the photographer that was recommend by others. Not to forget the food. Most of my guest said that the dishes are awesome, and I'm very happy about it of course. The only 2 thing I have a little regret is that 

1) We have no time to take a very wonderful photoshot and videoshot with our Ji muis and Heng dais. Why we dont have enough time? haizzz....

2) The lighting during our march in..I already inform I don't wan that kind of red color lighting when I went and see other customers' wedding as sample. My videographer won't able to take nice shot due to poor lighting. I don't understand why the person (they called him event planner as he is the one who decorate the flowers and all of the hall) still use the lighting. Anyhow, no doubt the decoration is nice la. thanks to the beautiful flowers. It wouldn't be nice if it is not because of the flower.

Anyway, it's over. No point crying over spill milk. :')

Basically, this sums up my wedding day. However, wedding day is just a beginning of our future. I am grateful that I am able to marry my first and only love. I am also glad that our family are modern families which is easy to get along with.
Thank you so much to each and everyone of you who attend our wedding and for all your wonderful wishes. It means so much to us.

So yea... I had married at the age of 24. If you wonder I am still young to marry, and doubt could I handle a job as a wife, as a daughter in law, sis in law, and all the laws, I would tell you, sooner or later you will need to handle. Age has nothing to do with it. Also, don't worry that marriage will tied you up. It is a myth. It is how u handle and how you communicate with each other.

This post took so many days to be completed. I was wandering how to upload our same day edit video and photo here but it says more than 100MB can't upload. I shall find another way then.
Till then.

Thank you for reading.

Love,
the author.