Friday, July 31, 2009
Nt enuf understanding kut..
I noe that i read b4, but huh.. duno hw 2 write..
I screw maths too.. Okie, it's maths okie..
SCREW MATHS ! U noe?
I SCREWED MATHS..
swt la...
The quest damn I duno wat to say la..
huhu.. I leave it blank lk dat..
So pityful..
I wanna cry :'(
Finals.. I will try my best..
Hopefully...
It's weekend..
Be happy..
~carolynwong~
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Let It Be
Just let it be and I shall move on..
Nothing is permanent..
Eventhough how much I care, and how much I don't want things to change..
That is out of my control..
Being really happy is something I hope to achieve.. I mean really happy as acting happy will be so suffering..
So, just let it be...
~carolynwong~
Sunday, July 26, 2009
感觉已经不一样了。
为什么呢?我真的不知道。
以前,觉得很开心的事,现在不值得再那么开心了。
以前,觉得很好玩的东西,现在不再觉得好玩。
以前,自己很喜欢的,现在却不喜欢。
以前,爱看的电影,忽然觉得闷了。
以前,让我觉得很舒服的,现在慢慢地,让我觉得越来越不舒服.
简短来说,一切都慢慢地在改变。
我不知道要怎样解释,但给我的感觉就是不一样了。
最近的我,真的很爱埋怨。。。
喜欢说这里不好,那里不好。
不止这样,我又变得小气。
以前的我,并不是这样。为什么现在会变成这样呢???
也许,别人不说我小气,但我自己也能够察觉得到。
有时候,我更知道别人在不爽我,可是,我真的不懂要给什么反应。
那只好也装不懂咯。哈哈。。
即使,我真的是小气,那又怎样?不如你们教我吧。。
别人常常把我看成是个,每天都很开心的人。 哈哈。。
如果是真的,那该有多好。
真实的我,并不是这样。
这事实,又有谁懂呢?
我不是说我在装,但只是。。
我觉得,笑怎样都会比哭好吧。。
笑哭也要过生活啊,那为什么不选择快乐一点地过。
疯狂地笑,并不代表是真的开心。。。
总之,就是麻痹了,没有像以前有的那种感觉。。
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect
Im laughing all de time.. maybe until ppl thought i 38.. but.. haih.. if nt laughing, wat cn i do somemore? hahaha..
But as i said, being happy doesn't mean that evrything is perfect.. there is still something keeps bothering me.. When I feel something is right.. n on the other hand, something, or sum ppl make it not right again.. Im so complicated la haiyoh...
Theres ppl for me to bla, but not free.. so sad..But But But But But...
when it is time to be happy, y shall i let go the chance to be happy rite? haha..
nyway, i feel muchie better these days la, but still not completely..
coz sometime i still feel la, y are ppl lk dat?.. when he/she is with diff ppl, he/she will hv diff character/attitude.. why isit macam itu ah?
I love to know human's behaviour and their thinking la.. it's so tiring to guess what are they thinking at times... n rite.. i maybe shud take psycology lor lk dat.. hahaha..
ehh, realise not? im updating my blog lk kinda often edy rite?
hahaha...
nowadays i becum a late sleeper.. i sleep in the afternun, n slp damn late at night.. my latest was 5am yoh.. i've break my sweetest record.. so sad..
oh ya, i wana talk somemore is rite,
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I can't understand
What the hell is wrong with me la weyh?
Why isit evrything happen, eventhough is ntg to do with me, but then it still involve me?
Sum whr goes wrg, sure me wan ar? Y not other ppl? y must be me? I so teruk until everything oso me ah?? Im so frustrated, BUT...
Actually what I suppose to respond huh? "yayaya, my fault.." or how shud i gv the damn ans?
why izit Im the one to be blame.. Only i make ppl angry izit? Ppl wont make me angry huh now?! so shit la..
Hu is thr willing to explain to me why???
Am I tooooooo bad, toooo terrible or what?
Whats the 1st impression i give off to people?
I also don't know..
Can people tell me arh?
People can be so bzbody at times.. I am tooooo.. But rite, find a right time la si boh..
Not ngam u, den dun kpoh so much la..
Im kpoh toooooo.. But i learnt how to see ppl's air muka.. people bu shuang dy, den walk away k.. I still cnnot understand laaa... Maybe exam coming soon, dats why like this ar.. is this a good reason? I dun think so..
What is emo? I finally know...
But still I dun understand...
Why people are like that... Only look frm the surface n make a stupid conclusion..
Im not a girl that can express well..
I laugh to the max, I laugh like crazy is bcoz i wanted to laugh, n i think it's always the best solution for anything.. But not now anymore...
In fact, I feel crying is much more better...
WHAT THE HELL !!
till the nxt no understanding post...
Sunday, July 19, 2009
NS little mini small reunion..Leo Mission
We had the gathering at A&W Seremban.. Lian Ee and I take ktm from Kajang to Nilai, and then from Nilai, our NS fren, Yen came n pick us up, coz it's bored driving alone to Seremban.. haha
n so, we continue our journey frm Nilai to Seremban by car.. This is what we call transit okie.. haha
We reach thr 11 something, nobody u noe.. Tak da seorang pun..
We thought "omg, we 3 ppl onia?" die lar.. n frm outside thr, Ain came.. The one who organise this gathering.. Although nt evryone can make it..but still.. gathering la.
n we notice Azam.. Wah, the hair long until cannot regconise... still like that cute la, except the hair is longer oni.. n den Jun came rdy.. I cannot spot any difference lor, only ther hair lor.. haha..longer + spikier... Then cikgu sue came.. She still look exactly the same.. Abby and Alang and another girl i cannt recall her name came..
After makaning, we talk talk lor.. Still 1st batch the best teacher said.hahaa
n i duno y 3rd batch oso cn go bk for a week wan.. we 1st batch is for CNY ma, now got any CNY meh? y can go bk wan? So unfair !! no need apply oso get 1 week, we apply so hard oni 1 week... hmph.. but over edy la.. hahaha.. lolz.. Then we sing birthday song for cikgu sue as her birthday is on June.. Ain bought a cake.. so nice of her..
Ohh, i tell you, that A&W huh, open only 1 counter.. ishish.. People all need to beratur for only 1 counter.. and is 11.45am brunch time.. they open 1 counter onia..
lolz.. sooryy for complaining too much la.. Just for fun !! No fun, no laughter, very bored lor !!
Most of them who came is Charlianssss only 2 Alpha and 1 Bravo and Deltaless..
Hormating pose..
The cake is nice.. whoaaaaaa!
Top: Jun, Ain,Yen, I forget the girl's name, AzamThen it's me, Lian ee, Cikgu Sue, Abby and Alang
hu's tongue longer !?
Forever dont look at the camera..hahahaThen, We also went back to Nilai.. Then, Yen show us where's her house, and guiding us almost whole Melati near Inti edy.. Memang inti dah.. n then, she drive into Inti.. haha.. I show them my block n which room sumore.. Then we went out, n phewww to Nilai KTM..
So, thats how la we finish lepakking..
It's nice to walk together, haha.. hang out together.. lolz..
n my chicken mummy in malacca jealous liao, coz she cnt come, n we syok syok go jalan2 togthr..
I guess, thats all for the gathering story
ps Manda, cikgu sue says she miss you =)
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LEO MISSION
Leo Mission had ended last weeek..At last and finally.. Basically, it is not a successful wan.. This is what I think as a programme master, because the prog dont run well.. Besides, as people all saying, it doesn't even touch the objective of this mission.. Some children may have gain knowledge, but some reli entertainment..
Mixed
i dono why isit lk dat.. but just this kind of feelings, very damn annoying. I dont wana think much, but there is just something i hv to think..
hmm.. vry hrd to explain.. sometimes, i just feel like blaming everybody.. but rite.. its wrong kan? so, i just hv to withstand it, eventhough that im no wrong if i blame that fella..
Und what i crappin heh? =)
why down ar? bcoz the sudden chnge of environment in the classs, n it's oni me can feel it n so, i hv nobody to share with.. Mayb too long no break?
what say u if ppl dun agree with u? I mean whats ur reaction?
Im oweys wondering, if i say something, n ppl DUN agree with me, what reaction shud i gv?
anyway, this week, ntg much, xcept i slept reli late, but still hvent break the 4am record.. hmmm.. I will nvr wana break the record.. I hv a sweet reason under it.. huhu
recently, i really dunoo hw 2 write out my feelings.. Unlike last time, whr i juz bla anything on my blog..ehehehe
Alrite,
Till then.
tata !
=)
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Random thoughts and updates
This is our group for presentation..=)chea yee, carolyn, jin yong,eeli and pearly..
After maths class..Friday, July 10, 2009
n now.. i would like to crap..
Im done with presentation.. n hopefulllllllly, i will be able to pass..
pray hard !
besides, Im done with bio quiz.. it's ezier compare to the 1st wan..and im not putting high hopes.. hopefullllly, boleh la..
coming up next, will be chemistry test 2!!! full with test, quizzzes, asssignmenntttt, bla bla bla.. but dun worry, although works are sedang bergunung-ganang, i will not gona complain about tired,letih.. n i will still be able to sleep, and play.. huhu..
sometimes, things become better when u have diff point of view.. so, no matter u kena bully,feel lonely or whatever, stay positive, stay strong n u will be able to overcome it..
Be independent, and nothing is impossible =)
hmmm... as i go on, i can see alot types of ppl..
some are real selfish pest.. they tend to keeep evrything by themselves, n are nt willing to share, n this is what i feel dissappointed about because sharing is caring, n i love this 3 words.. n now, they musnahkan the 3 words.. huhu.. u noe what im talking about? haha.. im crapping..
some even worse, they can memperalatkan other ppl, to achieve their goals.. ishh ishh.. bu ying gai.. seriously.. the society is lk drama la.. evrything u watch in drama, is actually happening around us.. huhu.. they can bomb each other to get what they wan.. kagumnya..
n rite, i wana tell wat edy ar.. my fren say they look me as a very happy person.. oh reli heh? haha..
but if dun wana be happy, ownself rugi leh.. y wanna make urself unhappy because of other ppl or other things? nothing is worth it laa.. but sometimes, u need to be serious, don lk me ki siao lk dat.. haha.. hahahahahahahahahaha..
1 more thing be happy oso must sincerely la.. don wan act act wan.. u happy means u happy la, dont when u not happy oso pretend laugh laugh, looks weird.. huhu
Tmr's convent's carnival wich mean foreverus91 gona meet again ! huhu !! yeah !! yippie !! can see pn lim rdy !! hahaha.. yes !!!!!! n
im lovin' it !!
till then !
toodles !
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Blooood Donation
but so happen, that time ngam ngam our break.. 3 hours sumore.. so my classmate all went to the booth thr.. then, i oso duno y, ppl gv me the form, n i juz fill in.. Actually, after cheking the blood type, pressure all, i don't wanna donate edy.. m the nurse si beh fierce.. It reminds me of
Our bannerOur board
cute leh.. Then the day before, adventure club had that blindness awareness campaign.. so.. our kawan is the committee ma, so we join.. huhu... they gt this stg experience blind thingy whereby u need to be blindfold n walk about 1/10 of inti.. huhu.. somekind of race la.. hahaha
let me introduce la.. sitting wan is mummy n daddy.. standing wan is anak sekalian.. 
we got 3rd price neh.. hahaha
The next thing is gonna be Leo Mission.. n i hope the mission will be as successful as blood donation event.. But.. huhu.. with tat kind of "object", hard la... Im looking forward to meet the kids from children camp 5 again !! Yeahhh !!!
Till then,
have a great weekend..
n yeah.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMRIT !!!
sorry amrit, no pic o. coz rite, my pc go re4mat n came bk..
Friday, June 26, 2009
sick of it..
sick
of
it..I love to complain..
I dun like this, i dun like that..
Everthing also i like to complain..
I hate dis, i hate that..
Im not satisfied with this and that..
what the hell is wrong with me? huh !!??!?
human being including me, are selfish..
Im trying nt to be selfish..
Sometimes, i really feel vry frustrated..
But how u wan me to show my anger?
in front of people meh?
but it's so hard for me to hide..
hmm
whatver.. it's late
Goodnight !
missss you alll..
Monday, June 22, 2009
IM back !
We nd to do some survey for the club's mission.. oh-so we went..
huhu
Now you seeeee
The group,Blueberrrry rockssszzz
soo, i guesss, thats all la alrite... dun la say i didnt update.. gt update wan.. hahaha
till then, take care !
Friday, June 5, 2009
moodless
SO,THEREFORE,SUO YI, OLEH SEBAB ITU, I already plan to sleep till 12pm... But IT FAILS, because of sum reason...
I am so no mood today.. Because I reli dun like it,.. n later is Maths classss, worse mann..
eeyer... feel like goin back home NOW...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
300th
what is expressedfeelings? to express what i wana express..ya, sounds lame.. but? why care?
Can I be what people wants me to be?
Am I weird? Am I terrible?
I will try.. to change
But sometimes it is just too hard to gv a sudden change, where people will never know hw hard it will be..
I guess all I need is just to cry n cry until i puas la..
CRY..
Crying doesn't help,but its 1 of my way to express my feelings..
Jusco day.Random
alot ppl wanted 2go at 1st, but somehow left 4 of us.. shopping queen, vimala oso put us rocket.. hahaha. is ok,nvm la.. we 4gv her wan..
So, we took ktm to seremban, n frm seremban's Ktm, we 4 ppl took a cab.. actually we juz wana ask the price wan, n it surprised us, as it is cheaper compare to laz week, n we dun hv to walk to terminal 1.. No need walk walk walk...plus we had lebih seorang den last week, but yet, we get cheaper price.. so... you think leh, we happie anot?
hahaha.. do u understand my sentence? hehehha
We reach Jusco around 2 sumthing, n Ee Li the jing ling bao bao wants to eat McD.. frm Inti, she keep on: I WANT TO EAT MCD !!!.. so, okie la... mcD cheap ma.. hehehehehe..
n so, at Mcd i meet up long time no seee punya NS friend, Bernard.. haha..
he very bz wan,must book appointment.. so thanks ya for cuming.. =)
then after we eat rite, all of us go jalan2.. ehh ya, the whole jusco we finish jalan rdy.. basically, it's lk cheras selatan n taman equine's la, all jusco the same ma rite..
1 more ting,vry damn important, we didnt buy things la.. i only bought sunsilk! eeli oso.. haha
so, we including transport fee all, we didnt use more den rm50.. huhu.. dah bertaubat la tu.. at 1st, i wana buy the jacket that i hide it under wan.. still there u noe.. hahahaha.. but dun1 la.. waste$$...
So, after that, xue wei wana play drum wa.. i tot she playin real drum or wat, rupa2nya the kids wonderland thr.. lolzzz..
while she n swee chin play drum, me n eeli went and drive car.. wahseh, so long din play ah.. so cheap oni, rm1 only.,. that Genting ahh, eat people's money u noe, rm 3 perplay, sumore they extend the time vry little only... ish ish..
hahaha.. tak sangka, pukul 5.30pm edy.. n so we wana go back lo, on the way out, we saw big apple donut.. i duno nice anot la, coz i think i eat b4, den i oso think i din eat b4.. cz i seldom eat donut ma.. we share2 la 1 box.. SHARING IS CARING.. =)
on the way out, i meet Jie Ying my NS friend also... walao, i cnt regconise her.. after few seconds,only i noe.. coz she coloured her hair edy.. imej yg baru.. haha..
n so, we naik taxi again to save sumtime, as we hv clubs meeting, n poor meifen is waiting for our arrival.. hahahahahaahahahahahahaha...
so sorry meifen.. let u fa meng for 1 hour..
So, this is our Jusco day.. n next we plan to GO AGAIN.. we are in love we Jusco... haha
This time to Sing K.. maybe? see how la.. hehehe
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Oh ya, am I proud? eeli say I proud n lcly... how? the stupid fcbook quiz about the eye colour wan also say i proud wa...
Am I reali proud? ya meh? sei la...
huhu.... but whatever it is... itu diri sebenar la.. give me time to chnge.....
There's no way for me to chnge in a week or a month..
n i duno hw la, talk less or talk more?
n i cnt simply smile at ppl noe, later ppl tot i gila siao or what.. that wan worse..
so till then.. tata...
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air conditioned room cold ar?
it's lk Yen Mun's karaoke room's tat type of air cond.. or lk shopping complex dat kind of air cond, u say cold ar?
why isit ppl lk to wear so little cloth? or clothes? they wont feel cold izit?
i am just very curious... hahaha..
juz a random stupid question pop up in my mind.. akibat ans too much quiz frm fcbook rdy... haha...
k la, this is such a damn long post..
I shall stop here 2day.. n continue once i hv stg pop up in my mind again..
tata...
Saturday, May 30, 2009
1 month had passed
MONDAY
Nothing much la.. got bio n chem lab classes.. We did experiments la of course.. So tiring mann 8-4pm.. NO BREAK ! but starting from next week, i got break rdy ! Yay !!
We had dinner at bakery there.. huhu..
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She got matrix, so she went for it.. we miss her..
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damn long la the KTM...
SALES SALES SALES !!!
Damn bored laa.. Me n Jin Yong the cutie !!!
Me and Yee Ling..
Swee Chin, Crystal.. she came frm kelantan..brave girl..
3 ppl.. while others shouting.. haha
FRIDAY!
It's the day to go home !! huhu !! yay!! hip hop horray !!!
We had chemistry in the morning.. n we learn new tamil words.. hahaha... Then we had mathss... bored la u noe.. n i oso not vry understand.. haih... i oso duno y... but anyway, all i want is to go home !!! angie fetch us balik kajang.. THANKS !!.. n so we can reach earlier..
If ktm means vry lambat, not very la, but lambat la.. coz must wait for the bus to KTM, and need to buy ticket n need to wait for train...
SATURDAY
Today la... i went Tescoo... the new Tesco semenyih..nt reli new la, but it's the 1st time la, for me..why dis tesco nt much ppl compare to saujana's wan? saujana wan oweys oso full wan that carpark, but semenyih wan, alot parking..
This week had been a quite fun week compare to the last few weeks.. oh ya, tuesday is ou vry free day, alot of outing is on tues wan... tues we went terminal 1 n jusco dy la.. so nxt week whr to go eh? hahaha... keep on thinkin of kai kai only.. but it's the way la... We should enjoy life !!
n i think thats all for this week's update..
Till then, tata !!
Take care people !!

